AHHHHHHHHHH I HATE YOU WITH THE MOST PASSION I EVER HAD IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok i think im a lil better now all i have to say is strike 3 my dear boy and your out and you won't be stepping back into this game. . . You have pushed me to the brink and now im falling off the cliff and its your fault and there is no way you can catch me cause im free falling now and im a better person because of it. . .

I'm free from your evil kingdom and you will NEVER rule this heart AGAIN, so take a good hard look at what you did and because you don't get to get me back because you'll find that the girl you once loved never stays the same person twice and you'll never find her again. . .

This is my final goodbye

I haven't updated in like awhile ok maybe like forever...

SoOoOo ill just tell you about the 3 Doors Down Concert....

Sooo morning i wake up and get a shower and have to run around like crazy to get everything done and be out the door by 1pm....I go get gas for the truck/SnS and all the good shit come home pack the car and finally hit the road.  First stop Rachael's house where i pick up my lovely best friend in all the universe and take her to the bank.  Drop her off at the bank and leave and get Brittany return to the bank and pick up Werner and head to Robyn's house.  Stop for gas for car #2.  Finally arrive at Robyn's house and pick her up making the SS's complete.  Hit 51 by 2pm like planned (so far so good) drive forever sorta stuck in hot lovely weather for a while.  Ya i know this sounds soo boring right now but it wasn't cause we were in the car partying and screaming and stuff fun times there.  Finally we get out of Pittsburgh were i swear i would die because people stop way to fast for me. So anyway we finally get on the last road we need to be on.  Pass a van of (supposedly cute guys) haha Rach DRIVE CATCH UP WITH THEM lol soo i did and then we played the passing game then had some weird old guy give us the thumbs up ok...weird yes.... 

Part 2 of our little trip:  We are hungry once we reach the town and still have forever to go sooo lets find a resturant and eat did you know there is only like a pizza shop and a Subway! we found this out fast soo it was Subway for us now we planned to take it to the parking lot and eat there and wait but we where to find out that this wouldn't be happening cause we get there and they are like you can't park till 5....looks at clock 3:30 ya getting the picture... sooo theres nothing to do in this place but we do find an abondoned constructin site and park there and had tons of people going to the concert end up there take funny pictures have guys offers us alchol ya all that good stuff...  Finally time to park go park and stand in the gate for another hour fun times...

Finally get in and once again have to wait another hour before the concert starts in which we were all huddled under a tarp because it was raining and then we saw our alchol guys and they came and talked with us for a bit... Show starts No Address was first and they were good i ended up liking them.  THEN BREAKING BENJAMIN!!!  They were awesome loved it so much esp the pricks behind us kicking stuff but ill get to that.  So me and Robyn run the Fye booth to get breaking benjamin's autograph and britt and werner come down and are all upset cause the jerks behind us dumped beer all over them...they go look for a security guard me and robyn get autographs and pics with the band <3 and find them reporting there thing and go with the girls have them get all upset cause the didn't "witness" the spilling so we get threatened to be kicked out and stuip drunk gets apologiged to and werner and britt now what to go home so we go to my car and me and robyn ended up going back and were like we don't like how this was handed.... Talk to head of guest services ended up getting the girls to come back into the show even tho we missed all of Staind...Get free food and vip parking cause of the situation watch 3 Doors Down which they were awesome i might say.  Leave have the girls go crazy in my back seat making me think my car is like shaking and about to break down.....Robyn look its Hankey Farms haha.  Drop Rach and Britt home me and robyn go out icecream and then back to her house were i chill until i leave and finally pass out just to wake up early to go to work...

This is just summerized and it really long geez...Next day instead of sleeping again i go out with Lauren and Krista till like after 2am....The chainsaw killer is going to get us haha....Leeper road maybe this is the fayette city one not the bellevernon one lol krista.....I loved the park.... Fun times getting "lost" with you guys in the middle of the night... Today i just chilled at home being boring and reading my Harry Potter book where im about to go again so ta

Ok so i was looking around things lately and i came across a longish list of things i had wanted to do in life a long time ago now this is like years ago keep this in mind but i thought i would be fun to publish it and see how many of the things i have actually done so far so ill star them if i did them and i think it would be cool to see if anyone else has made a list and how many they accomplish so here it is......................

THING I WANT TO DO IN LIFE...

1)See the Northern Lights...
2)Go to Australia...
3)Hang glide...
4)Go to Hawaii...
5)Learn to surf...
6)swim with dolphins...
7)Go horse back riding...
*8)Fall in love...
/9)Loss 10 pounds...
*10)Sit under the stars with someone i love...
11)Own a dog...
12)Have a perfect flat stomach...
*13)Get my first kiss...
14)Work with tigers...
*15)Get a boyfriend...
16)Have a star named after me (you can do that)...
/17)Go to college...
*18)Own a car...
19)Get my belly button pierced...
20)Get a tattoo...
21)Move to somewhere warmer...
22)Go to the beach again...
23)Have at least one kid...
24)Get married...
*25)(this one might sound weird)Have my heart broken so i can appreciate love...
26)Model once...
27)Steal every speed limit sign from 5-70 (don't ask its a long story)
28)Go to New York for New Years
29)Go to Mardi Gras<

*=done   /=almost

Ok, so i haven't written in a longgggg time ya your over it already i can see...  So anyway i guess ill start last week or something like that

Tuesday well this was an interesting night all we went to the movies and all i have to say to sum up the whole night is Wendy's haha.   

The senior banquet was wednesday which was fun after a while then me, robyn, rach, and lindsay went out and met up with people.  Running through parking lots doing cart wheels tons of fun...

Thursday i worked during the day and then had to go to an awards thing so i could receive my high honors tassle....nothing else there

Friday the big graduation night i was fun and nobody like cried it was weird lol.  Lauren brought me and RayAnn flowers it was sooo sweet and funny cause she was in her bva shirt.  I came home and my parents gave me books and stuff but the best of it all was my LaPtOp....o ya i loves it to the third power...  Then i went out and went bowling and then went to eat n park it was fun...

Saturday i had to work and i was supposed to go to Tony's grad party but my stuip parents decided to give me a 12:00 curfew out of the blue so i would have only been there for like 30 minutes so i was angry

Sunday umm o ya Robyn's grad party was then it was fun stayed there for awhile then me, rach, emily, britt, and tony ended up coming swimming at my house for a bit then britt and tony left and the rest of us went to Wendy's....

Monday i mostly cleaned my room then went to work...

Today i think im supposed to go out with rach and do something but im not sure what yet o well ill see what the day has in store for me and right now its going to start with me playing ddr haha

[x ] I've consumed alcohol.
[/] I've run away from home.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I have collected comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ]  I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3.
[x] I love Disney Movies.
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes.
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I love Spam.
[/] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school. 
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[x] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[x] am guilty oF tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am sometimes self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.       
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 3 pills at a time no problem.
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I've been out of this country.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I've seen a therapist.
[x] I love chocolate.
[x] I sometimes bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I watch cartoons.
[x] Gotten lost in my city.
[x] I have seen a shooting star
[ ] Been to any other countries besides the United States
[ ] I had a serious Surgery
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[ ] I have Kissed a Stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[/] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[x] Swore at your parents
[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] Been to a casino (viva las vegas)
[ ] Been skydiving
[x] Broken a bone
[x] Skipped school
[x] Played spin the bottle
[ ] Gotten stitches (wisdom teeth)
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten somebody
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Ridden in a taxi
[x] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[x] Stole something from your job
[/] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Saw someone die

[ ] Been to Africa
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[ ] Been to Canada
[ ] Been to Mexico
[ ] Been on a plane
[ ] Thrown up on a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi                
[/] Been snowboarding
[ ] Been Skiing
[ ] Been to a motor cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[ ] Gone to college 
[ ] Graduated college
[ ] Done hard drugs
[ ] Had someone cheat on you
[ ] Smoked a cigarette
[ ] Smoked a cigar
[ ] Made out with a member of the same sex
[x] Slept with a co-worker (well he was my bf at the time)
[ ] Purposely set a part of myself on fire
[ ] Been in an abusive relationship
[x] Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
[x] Made a snow angel
[x] Had a tea party
[x] Flown a kite
[x] Built a sand castle
[x] Gone puddle jumping
[x] Played dress up
[x] Jumped into a pile of leaves
[x] Gone sledding
[x] Cheated while playing a game
[x] Been lonely
[x] Fallen asleep at work/school
[x] Watched the sun set (and rise too)
[ ] Felt an earthquake
[x] Touched a snake
[x] Slept beneath the stars
[x] Been tickled
[x] Been robbed (some took money off me at work)
[x] Been misunderstood
[ ] Won a contest
[x] Ran a red light
[ ] Been suspended from school
[ ] Been in a car accident
[ ] Had braces
[x] Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
[x] Had deja vu
[x] Danced in the moonlight
[x] Hated the way you look
[x] Pole danced
[x] Been obsessed with post-it notes
[x] Squished barefoot through the mud
[x] Been lost
[ ] Been to the opposite side of the country
[x] Swam in the ocean
[x] Felt like dying
[x] Cried yourself to sleep
[x] Played cops and robbers
[x] Recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
[ ] Sung karaoke
[x] Paid for a meal with only coins
[x] Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
[x] Made prank phone calls
[ ] Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
[x] Caught a snowflake on your tongue
[x] Danced in the rain
[x] Written a letter to Santa Claus
[x] Blown bubbles
[ ] Made a bonfire on the beach
[ ] Crashed a party
[x] Gone rollerskating
[x] Had a wish come true
[x] Worn pearls (i did to prom) 
[ ] Jumped off a bridge
[x] Screamed penis in public
[ ] Screamed vagina in public
[ ] Ate dog/cat food
[ ] Told a complete stranger you loved them
[x] Kissed a mirror
[x] Sang in the shower
[x] Had a dream that you married someone
[x] Glued your hand to something
[x] Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole (it wasn't a flag pole but i remember it was stuip)
[ ] Kissed a fish
[x] Worn the opposite sexes clothes
[x] Sat on a roof top
[x] Screamed at the top of your lungs
[ ] Done a one-handed cartwheel
[x] Talked on the phone for more then 6 hours
[x] Stayed up all night
[ ] Didn’t take a shower for a week.
[x] Climbed a tree
[ ] Had a tree house
[x] Are scared to watch scary movies
[ ] Worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
[x] Played chicken
[ ] Pushed into a pool/lake with all your clothes on
[x] Been told you're beautiful by a complete stranger
[x] Been easily amused (always)
[ ] Caught a fish then ate it
[x] Caught a butterfly
[x] Laughed so hard you cried
[x] Cried so hard you laughed
[x] Had someone moon/flash you
[x] Cheated on a test
[x] Have a Britney Spears CD
[x] Forgotten someone’s name
[ ] French braided someone’s hair
[ ] Grown a beard